Poetry in Motion.. | phidget's Blog

Just some stuff I'ver written in the last 6 months... some of it's pretty good (at least I think so) and some of it... well... it's not my best work.... HAHAHA

Today... and everyday...

The sun shone brighter today..

don't ask me why, it just did...

My smile was bigger today...

don't ask me why, it just is...

My heart feels lighter today...

don't ask me why, it just does...

My life seems better today...

don't ask me why, because...

everything around me and about me

just seems better than the day before...

and every day it feels this way

because every day I love you more...

So don't ask me why... I just told you

that you are the reason for all of this...

And every day upon every day

is the best day there is...

CYNICISM

I don't hide my eyes behind rose colored glassses...

My world is drawn in shades of gray...

everyone needs to be a little cynical...

everyone needs to be a little insane...

they say hope is for the hopeful

what of those who have lost all faith

do we get nothing in return

can we not have the same?

my glass was never half full...

hell I don't think it was ever there...

so a naive belief in nothing and everything ...

leaves me feeling as if it nothing can compare...

to what I believe and what I see...

but is it just me... am I alone in my reality

or has my dreams wandered beyond my mind

and consumed those around me completely...  

you can't expect the world to fall neatly in line...

you can't expect everything to be painted in rainbow hues...

all you can do is keep on breathing ...

and if you're lucky - continue to be you...

GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!

I’m afraid to sleep at night

memories of you fill my mind

you are not the man I know

and I know its best to just let go

but your face lingers within my dreams

your scent on the pillow next to me

I hear your voice within my tears

I can feel your presence it fills me with fear

fear of losing of moving on

but all I need is for you to be gone

gone from my memories, gone from my life

but you continue to haunt my every night

so I’m afraid to close my eyes and dream

because I know you’ll be there - waiting for me...

 

ALONE ON THE ROAD

I’m alone on the road

letting the landscape pass me by

I drive faster and faster

trying to leave you behind

further and further

the distance grows

but I still feel you behind me

you are still way too close

I keep on driving

trying to escape

but you’re still  there

I can see your face

I’m alone on the road

letting the landscape pass me by

trying harder and harder

to get you out of my mind

Demons Inside...

all of my demons hide inside...

they lurk within diminishing the light...

taking my air and strangling my heart...

the weight is heavy they are tearing me apart...

but on the outside is a smile, more of a smirk....

hiding the pain - hiding the hurt...

no one knows the real me...

only the one they want to see...

no one can see the void, but its there...

the emptiness is more than I can bear...

to let go and just be gone would be best...

but the thought of those left behind leaves me with unrest...

so I continue on with my demons inside...

and hope that I can keep fighting the fight...

Just a Moment

Just a moment to hide my eyes…

Just a moment to ignore the lies…

Just a moment to forget my pain…

Just a moment to erase your name…

Just a moment to not fall back…

Just a moment to finally relax…

Just a moment to disappear…

I just need a moment here…

Fucking Insane...

nothing is the same... its all changed...

everything is so surreal...

dreams and promises ~ do they still exist...

forgiveness hides its eyes from the light...

reaching, grasping at thin air...

the sound of your breath fills me...

sadness and anger engulf me...

but here I am before you...

holding my heart in my hands...

begging, pleading "don't hurt me"...

my heart wants to believe...

my head can only say ~ "I must be fucking insane..."

Haunting Me

the past is haunting me, taunting me...

wanting me to believe...

to see the  unseen...

I close my eyes tightly...

but memories haunt me nightly...

and I can't breathe...

YOUR past is haunting me, taunting me,

wanting me to believe... all  that I've already seen...

No Turning Back

looking back... falling forward...

standing still but always moving...

in the distance it all seems the same...

nothings changed but everythings different...

holding on to nothing... hoping for something...

dreams will be dreams...but reality prevails...

and in an instant my senses fail...

and I fall back into the black...

no turning back now... no, no turning back...

Drowning

constantly defending

always mending

bridges you burnt along the way

the more I do

the more you destroy

I give more than I could ever take

I feel like I'm fighting

a losing battle

but you don't see my scars

I try to reach for you

but you push me away

the distance has grown too far

bending and breaking

all for the sake

of saving your soul

but I'm losing my own

I've grown weary - weakened

I feel so defeated

my defenses depleted

from fighting wars you created

finding you smiling

as I drown in my tears

and nothing has even touched  you